Monday, November 15, 2010

Your life wont crumble unless you let it

It has been a while since I have blogged, and a lot has happened. I went on a cruise, which was fantastic! I got to mark a few things off of my list. But thats not what this post is about. The past few weeks have been the hardest of the year. Up to this point this year has been the most wonderful year of my life. Of course thats when Satan will attack. He has been hard at work. At times I feel like I am about to completely break. I could go on about how someone elses selfish behavior has put me in the place I am at now. But that doesn't excuse how I choose to handle it. I could;

A) let my life crumble into a hundred tiny little pieces.
B) I can choose to be stronger than this.

One day I feel ready and able to take the world on. Then I get the best of me, and talk myself out of it.
I wish today was a day that I could say I was ready to chase this lion, but I'm not sure and today is almost over. I know when all is said and done I have a wonderful Savior who loves me more than I know. I want certain things out of life, but I am not guaranteed that my life is going to be easy. I have flooded my heart with scripture to keep my heart at ease. But that doesn't take the sting out. Life sucks sometimes. I don't want to have to go through tribulations, but I guess that sometimes it's what we have to do. I know with every fiber of my being that my God is bigger than this, and thet He will take care of me. But I am human, and I let things get the better of me. I have been honest, more honest than I felt comfortable with being. I don't want this to get the best of me. I would rather make the best out of every situation. It's gonna be rough. I know where I stand spiritually, and I know where my strength comes. I wouldn't have gotten this far with out it. I still have a lot to work on when it comes to faith, but I'm not giving up that easily. So, even in my moments of weakness... well I think God's words are better suited;

'And He said unto me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.'

I wonder if Heaven will have crumbe cake...