Here I am Lord send me:
I'm not one for commitments. Not in the sense that 'I can't ever commit to anything', more like I'm weary of committing to something and then failing. So I guess I'm more 'not one for failure'. I've committed my Tuesday evenings to a life group. That may not seem like a big deal, and really just saying I'll show up every Tuesday isn't a big deal. What is important is the underlying commitments I made. I have vowed to earnestly put forth my all into this life group. Building genuine relationships with other Christ followers and to grow my personal relationship with God. My first 'little' commitment is to spend time each morning in prayer with God. My second 'little' commitment is to plan a social service. The first is learning to give what time I waste to God. The second brings me out of my comfort zone. Way out of my comfort zone, which is where Faith steps in. In order to succeed I have to lean on God. I must succeed, because I refuse to let Satan have the satisfaction of me failing this.
Another one bites the dust:
Something else I can mark off my list is humility. I like others am guilty of judging, but this blog isn't about 'others' it's about me. I am not perfect (in fact I'm far from it) but I don't have a habit of admitting my downfalls to others. Especially if its against them. Last night I did. I admitted my folly to the very one I offended. They may never have known, but I knew, most importantly God knew. Saying "I'm sorry" is probably the second hardest thing to do (second to saying "I forgive you"). It kinda makes one want to crap their pants.
So I have taken two (small) steps closer to my lions. I am not celebrating just yet. As I still have a long journey ahead of me, but as I promised I will write about everything. I will end with a verse that has spoken greatly to me today.
"And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worried about tomorrow - not even the powers of hell can separate us from God's love. No power in the sky above or in the Earth below - indeed nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord" - Romans 8:38-39